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When I was in high school I was a gay black male nerd and I learned quickly that I had to hide from everyone in order to survive.​ It was a stressful time for me as I had to figure out who I was and who I wanted to be while suppressing my true desires and feelings.​ One way I dealt with the stress and confusion was through masturbation.​

China Realistic Sex Doll Products Child Siliocne Mini Love Dolls - China Child Love Dolls and ...At first, I was hesitant to experiment and explore this aspect of my sexuality.​ I thought it was something that only “bad” people did and I was scared of doing something that would make me look bad.​ After some research and deep reflection, though, I realized that pleasure and exploration was natural.​

I started small, Penis Rings exploring my body and discovering how my body reacted to different kinds of stimulation.​ I could feel my loneliness and confusion ease away as I experimented and allowed myself the pleasure my body needed.​ I felt like I had finally found a way to make sense of all the conflicting feelings I had.​

Eventually, I became more comfortable with the idea of masturbation and I started to spend more and more time exploring my body.​ I even started to experiment with different types of sex toys and lubricants, which added a whole new aspect to my solo exploration.​ My sessions became longer and my emotions more intense.​

More importantly, I found a safe space to express myself without fear of judgment or reprisal.​ In this safe space, I could be honest and true to myself without consequence.​

Masturbation helped me find a measure of peace and solace in the tumult of my teenage years.​ I’m thankful for that, even if I wasn’t always entirely comfortable with it.​

I still remember the moments when my exploration gave me a moment of clarity in the midst of darkness.​ I remember the sensations as I explored my body and my dreams.​ I remember the joy of discovering a new aspect of my identity.​

The last few years have been filled with intense emotions and personal growth.​ I have explored my body and discovered new sides of my identity.​ I am grateful for the pleasure and the secrets that masturbation has revealed to me.​ I have gained a newfound respect for my body and have grown to accept my quirks, flaws, and even my weird obsession with black nerdy things.​